dude grow up, there are babies with cancer and good people dying out there when they want a long healthy life, and your talking about finishing the one you have. i pity and detest people who consider suicide, we all have bad things happen to us, and i have been through some major stuff myself, but consider this, you have a choice, a lot of people dont, and life is a definate blessing if you make the best of it, its just a case of finding the best way to react to events, and take control. good luck and stop thinking like that, see a pro.